conception – birth
fish vs. human
resolution: it’s OK to be a tadpole
The big bang
I just heard a big bang
it sounds like my parents decided
to have some fun
yet, I don’t think that
they calculated the consequences
well, you know kids!
As I was floating through the celestial roads
something pulled me down with urgency
my soul was required for a kid being created
it will be a boy, and he will be wanted
even though he wasn’t planned
It’s funny to be in water again
from a bird I have become a fish
but they say that I will be
a human after all
my God, can they make-up their minds?
it almost sounds as if nobody is in control
I better shut-up
I don’t want to get in trouble with the boss
he does get a little cranky every now and then
but, it is usually justified
and no, I’m not kissing ass
I don’t care what you think!
My mother is getting roundish
her waist is no longer around
she looks more like a barrel
but a happy one, after all
My sisters sound like two additional mothers
oh, boy, will I be spoiled!
nothing wrong with being wanted, kissed, and hugged
give me more, I’ll say, as they take care of me
oh, boy, I can’t wait to be at home
Oh, my God, it felt like an amusement park
as I was going down the slide
they could have told me
about how fast my mother’s deliveries were
not even Fed-Ex could compete with her
And who are all these people?
why do I get spanked on the ass?
I want my mommy, I want my mommy
why do they take me away from her?
these people have no shame
these people have no love
I know they are doing their best
but I want my mommy
I do, that’s what I want
I want my mommy
and that’s what I got
I got my mommy!
Self-forgiveness
conception-birth
I forgive myself for judging myself as overprotected
I forgive myself for judging myself as egocentric
I forgive myself for judging myself as self-centered
I forgive myself for judging myself as spoiled